Stumbling

Things have really gone downhill over the past few weeks. I haven’t felt so stressed in a long time. Especially so much physical tension.

I’m feeling so tired and a bit hopeless, like I keep getting almost better only to plunge again. I’m financially stressed still, and yet my new job is about to give me a breakdown. I’m withdrawing from everything again, burrowing in my apartment even when it is gorgeous out. I keep telling myself one more week, but it always seems that getting back to an even keel is sometime out of reach.

I could really use some good news this week.

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A Ball of Stress

So, I hate my new job. I was almost crying when I left today. It is so stressful with horrible and long hours. And constant criticism. I am so full of tension, I shake for hours after I leave. I think I will need to increase my meds back to what they were as this job makes me feel on the brink of a nervous breakdown. And I was doing so well!

Please wish me luck in finding a new job soon. I’m not sure how much longer I can take this without quitting. But if I’ve learned anything over the past few years, it’s that your health needs to come first. 😦