An often recommended treatment for depression is to keep a journal. I’ve always had trouble with keeping a journal, so I decided to approach journalling in the form of a blog. Let the experiment begin!
I’ve suffered from chronic depression and anxiety since I was a teenager. However, it was only in my mid-twenties that I started to suspect this, and years later before I admitted it to myself. This only happened when things came to a head and I suffered a breakdown that was so severe that I could no longer deny that there was a serious problem.
I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety in 2009 and I’ve been trying to make my way back since. I’ve tried many medications, met with various doctors and also had counselling. While I’m mostly functional now, I still have frequent bouts of depression, often triggered by anxiety. My hope is that through my blog I will be able to better understand myself and work through whatever is causing my continued depression.
Probably the most difficult aspect of my depression is the isolation. I know it is self-imposed, but that doesn’t make it any easier to end. I struggle with the stigma of mental illness and with the idea that depression and anxiety happen, and they are not something to be ashamed about. This is something I want to work through in my journal.
So, join me if you like on this journey of self-discovery. I’m hoping to finally find a way to live life again, and this is the story of the challenges and (hopefully) successes along the way.